Aayee

Yesterday I was very sick, and desperately wanted my grandmother (Aayee as I called her). Sadly enough she died last year in September. Our lives have changed after her death. She was the center of our family. She was a strong woman, who took charge of all of us. I and my sister were completely dependent on her. I loved hearing stories about her and her life. She gave an aura that she could take care of everything. Since 2005 she had been suffering from throat cancer, and only because of her will power and mental strength she survived for four more years. She had two tubes sticking out of her, a tracheal tube through which she breathed, and a nasal tube through which she was fed. But strangely enough she was not dependent on anybody, she prepared her own juice and fed herself through the tube. She cleaned her own tracheal tube and wore it herself. She managed the entire house and us. I dont know from where she got her strength. My younger sister could not do anything without her, she even taught to read and write despite the fact that she herself no longer spoke.

I remember her more now, as I am stressed up for my 10th exams, but I know she is always there for me. Someone asked me who is my role model, I can only see my Aayee and her indomitable spirit and love. I hope I live my life as she lived her life.

Thank you Aayee for all the time that you have spent with me, I really appreciate it.