Undefined..

He says he does not know if he loves me,
and he wants to be a soul that is free
And i never have or never will ask him to keep confined
All i want is this relationship to be defined.
I wonder if its real or he is just going on incidentally
keeping my fingers crossed for him to be involved emotionally
Love is freedom and state of mind where there is unconditional giving
And to give him this kind of love i am happily willing.

But I don't know if he wants it from me
I don't know if he needs it from me

When we meet its a bliss
we laugh, talk and share a kiss
I want this to be neverending
because thinking about a better future with him is what keeps me going
And now i am in this emotional twirl
Hoping to be his official girl...

DREAMS..

Everyone has dreams to live for. I too have dreams; i dream of making it big in this world..I dream of keeping people happy. I dream of not having regrets and following my heart, I dream of fulfilling the wishes of my close ones. I dream of being a nice and kind person, i dream of eradicating sadness from people's life, i dream of a fair and just world, i dream for everyone to have equal rights,i dream for all my dreams to come true one day and i dream for my dreams to evolve and that i never stop dreaming and desiring for more..

CHANGE !!!

Okay, to start with, I am blogging after 3 years. I have no idea why i stopped writing infact i never checked my blog for any updates(maybe because nobody reads it, so i feel sort of offended )..Today while going through my old posts I realized how i have grown through these years, for some reason I was quite embarrassed, I felt my posts were quite childish but I was a kid then...right? So now in the past 3 years nothing major has changed expect for i moved out of home for studies and now m in a new city with new people and new friends and i am doing my graduation, hopefully i graduate *Sigh  , and now i am facing difficulty in accepting changes i.e As i am growing my body is growing more curvy and rounder so i sort of miss being super skinny as i could wear anything i wanted, but anyways enough with the girl talk.

As I am staying by myself i get a lot of alone time with myself, I am utilizing it to figure out who am i and what i want. I hope i figure it out soon. I stopped blogging and with that i stopped many things i used to do, I stopped singing , composing and writing and now i have decided i am going start it all over again, I have also started socializing, i have always been very shy and not so social(maybe because i have the fear that people will take advantage or it may turn out to be something bad)but now i am trying to overcome it. I am getting rid of my inhibitions , so  I hope all these slight changes in my life, help me for good. And I have practically learnt now that "Fear is not good for great" and "change is for the greater good"...I will try to continue writing and learning and sharing it. And this time I am writing for MYSELF so i won't be offended if nobody reads it. This one is for me.

Peace ..

GOOD GIRLS! BAD GIRLS!

I want to spend more time with my friends, and when I talk with my friends at school the teachers misunderstand and complain to my parents. It hurts me when anybody scolds me or say that I talk too much with boys. How come we are reading in coeducational school and it still is considered to be bad if we talks with boys. Why is that? Why are the teachers so intolerant when we speak with boys. The teachers should guide us on how to behave with boys, and how to cope when boys propose, and how to say no assertively, but instead of teaching these skills, the teachers divide girls into good girls and bad girls. Good girls are those who do not speak with any boys, and bad girls are those who speak to boys.

What can we do, should we as young students go and complain to the principal to educate the teachers or should we just keep quiet and wait to pass out of school with a lot sadness that we did not enjoy our school days ever.